My Crazy Beautiful Life

I tried to post on Sunday about the crazy week I had last week but for some reason the pictures didn't want to post and it locked the blog up so I'm going to try again.  Last week was crazy because we weren't on the normal schedule and that throws me off and my emotions were apparently crazy because I felt like I could just scream when someone looked at me wrong. But...I enjoyed some time playing in the snow with the kids last week and I have already gotten to enjoy two days of snow play with my little man.  I am going to hopefully post some pictures of them playing.  I'm hoping this week will calm me down and I won't feel so crazy but it is what it is. I am still doing my thirty day workout challenge and I am on day 19....I am enjoying working out and already looking for something to do after this finishes.  I am hoping this is the start of me sticking to it and making things better for myself.  We are praying to be blessed with more kids and the healthi...

I was going to post yesterday but things happened and I didn't get to the computer, but I can tell you the blog would have gone a completely different direction if I had posted yesterday. As I stood cooking breakfast this morning and reading my daily devotional, I had to stop and think....no Thank God for all the blessings he has given me.  A lot of times we get caught up in asking what if, instead f looking at what we are blessed with.  If we live life with nothing but what ifs we are going to miss the beauty God has laid right before us.  No mater what we have been through in life, the good, the bad, the ugly and the funny...it is all a part of God's plan for us and when looking back you can see it was truly a stepping stone to where we are now.  I am going to try to every time a what if comes to mind...stopping and thank God for something he has blessed me with.  Why say what if because that if could have changed my entire story.... ...You know the what if...

As work begins again, and the schedule was all out of whack from the wonderful weather, I have had to just close my eyes and breathe from time to time.  Winter can be depressing to begin with because you are stuck inside a lot, you know the winter blues.  I find myself with wandering thoughts while I try to write this blog so if I am all over the place I apologize. 2014 has brought about hope for a better me as a person, wife, mother, teacher, friend, daughter, granddaughter, etc....I strive to be good, but feel as though I fail a lot.  I know I am my own worst critic and let me tell you I am very hard on myself (this does not help depression or self-image issues) Any who....not yelling is one thing I am working on...I want my house to be a happy house, happy husband and happy kids.  There have been some challenging moments in the past week that I could have yelled at the top of my lungs, but I have closed my eyes and just took a breath.  It is eas...

This will be short but I said I was going to blog weekly and since today is the last day of week 1 I guess I better blog.  Went back to work on Thursday and I still wish I could stay home and be with my babies instead of working but the bills must be paid.  Today we are cleaning and working on getting things back in order from the holidays and I know we will still be working on this well into next week or the next.  If only there was more time in the day to get things done.  Anyway, I guess week one of the is year has been ok.  As I said in my last blog Monday we buried my grandfather, Tuesday was my anniversary, Wednesday I got to eat lunch with my grandmother for New years and Thursday and Friday it was back to work.  Here's to keeping goals I have set and keeping myself accountable for things I want to do.  Now to finish cleaning, so I can get everything organized and hopefully get some things jumpstarted again that took a major back burner here l...